God showed me a glimpse of your Beauty

But when I came back for it you were gone

When you were gone my heart broke

I searched everywhere

Then I began searching in everyone 

                                       In everything

I told people what I had seen 

I told them yes, it is real

But they didn’t believe me

They didn’t care 

Sometimes I’d see a woman on my travels and it would hit me again

When I saw her I always tried to get her but she was always gone 

My whole life was spent like this 

And the next one

I’d even dream of it 

She would keep me awake

Any of them

The Flash 

Come to think of it I saw the flash before 

Not with mum but with a Lady

A teacher 

When I was a kid I would try to grab the beauty from them

They were it

I tried to be it

I tried to be it with them

The rest was grey

The rest was dead

The flash was colour

No one else saw it

None of the other kids

They lived grey 

Was I more grey for having seen it

I think so 

Because I could never get it

Not even in you My Love

And it drove me up

I had no one to speak to about it 

But for more than a life it was all that was real

The flash hurt

But I never gave up on it

I never stopped chasing it 

Sometimes I’d try to paint it or write it

But I couldn’t 

One day God stopped me and said 

My Love you will never get it

Only when you let go 

Will it come

Let go of the flash

But when did it come?

He said go into the case 

The case had my Art

flashes flashes flashes of beauty 

Many beauty’s 

with no where to go

they had been seen

but the beauty got trapped

They had been seen 

but something had gone wrong

They had fallen into Darkness

And all of the Art

Was Lost

It was lost here

In the case

Here I saw the Flash

Greater than I’d ever seen it 

I felt the pain

As A girl

I felt it

My heart broke that night, open

And I never ever saw the beauty again

I never saw it in her

I felt it in me 

And the next time I saw her she was not gone

The next time I saw her she said I was beautiful 

It was the first thing she said 

And I will never forget it

Someone not grey

Someone who sees it who feels it

When my Art was in the case I couldn’t paint

Now I paint and paint and paint

The Art is there and so is she too

I have never looked for it again

I have never looked for her

Now they say I am beautiful everywhere I go

I am known for it

Now everywhere I go it is not grey

They say how did you do it?

I said I had to lose it first

I lost it so bad

Then the case 

They said oh, the case

And they carried on

They carried on with their case and I knew they wouldn’t look in it 

It wasn’t heavy enough yet

They would carry it for a few more lives

Until they couldn’t take it anymore they would

Until they were driven to despair 

Almost madness

From all the grey 

Only then would they look

Only then would madness drive them in 

Only then would they cry out to God at all of the grey 

Only then would they say that God is no God for it 

No God to create such a grey world 

Then they will have the courage

They will go into the case because it is time

Because they can do nothing else

God said he only gave them the case to show them the grey

To show them the beauty

In the end

To show them that originally it was beauty 

And it will always come back to it

In every case 

God never in all of the years made someone without a case 

It is the only thing they must have

Because without the case there is no chance for beauty 

And Beauty is all there is

When God made everyone he gave them a case

In heaven they call it The Grey 

In Heaven they call Earth the journey to The Grey

Where the case gets more and more and more and more

And then less and less and less and less 

They forgotten about Beauty now

They forgot it

The times now,

The cases are very Heavy

But people are getting tired 

Tired of The Grey

People cannot take it

More people are coming to God he says to protest

More people are finding the case 

God is happy when more people come he gets happy and he watches them open the case

He watches their journey to the case and he watches them let it all go

He watches the grey life,

And the Beauty come,

In every single one.

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