They said I will get my love

I don’t know how it work but they said I will get love

All this time it is all I wanted

I got many things but all I wanted was love

A quest

A quest for something true that doesn’t go

I can’t be left with nothing anymore

There is something so great in you

In us 

It scares me to death

I have been in the tunnel for so long

I am used to the tunnel now

Will you do it with me

Will you try it with me

Come out of the tunnel into the Light

What will we do when we get to the Light?

In the tunnel there is somewhere to go

Always a fight 

Always a hope to a future to the next step

The Tarot

But when we get to the Light what will we do?

I am scared it is yet another of the devils tricks

It is another turn in the tunnel

I can’t take it anymore

Not with you

May it be love

Please may it be real love now

I have suffered enough 

We have 

I have done my work

I did everything they said

All in the name of love

All in the same question 

I am suspended in space and time with you

And we are taking a chance

We are taking a chance on this

We are taking a chance on what we have

Somewhere we know it is right

Somewhere very deep

Somewhere more powerful than all of the ways of the world

Somewhere we know

We feel 

The wheel

We feel the difference

We hear the new day

The birds 

And the sky 

We see the sun

It is you you are so light

And so am I 

But what about our cases

I still feel sad

What about your case?

How will it work

This tunnel has made me hopeless 

I feel full of doubt

I expect it 

Another battle 

Another day in the dark

I am tired of faith 

I am tired

The tunnel is so tiring

I have been tired for a long time now but I have kept on and on and on

When will the new day come

I am still in the tunnel

I will not have you be like the rest

I will not have it

I will change my dream again and again until I know it is love

Until I know I can love you

Until I know you can love me 

I will not do it again

It is Christmas time 

The angels tell me to have faith 

Again and again they tell me to have faith

But in what

I don’t know in what anymore

I walk in the dark 

And the darkness always comes 

More and more

I see my love then the darkness comes

She makes me cry a lot

When she said goodbye I cried

When I heard about her life I cried

I still need to cry 

But I still want to write to her

I write thousands of words for her easily

They say leap leap

I am always leaping never landing 

Leaping leaping 

Where?

I don’t know

Somewhere different 

Leaping into you 

And hoping the angels make a miracle for us

The miracle is already here

It was here when we met

It is here now

In the awkward moments its here

When I looked at you and thought Wow she is beautiful it was there

And I know you heard although I didn’t say it

And I know you felt it and then you got scared

And then you went funny

And then you went back to normal the next day

I have my work but I want to get lost in you too

But I won’t get too lost because you have a family

You are busy so I can’t steal you away

That is good 

I cried when I found out about your son because I wanted to steal you

I wanted it to just be us

The dream I suppose 

I know we are from different worlds and I wonder how it will work

But now I have found you and you are so true I don’t want to leave you again

Not until the Angels say

Not until they force us away

Will it suffocate and die out like the rest

The rest haunt me

The past does

The case 

The case haunts me still

They’re saying fly into love

But it was never a good thing to fly into love

It was always a disaster and I always flew in and thought myself stupid

But this time they say Fly! Fly !

You are the fool now you fly with god

It cannot go wrong

It is fated for beauty

I just want to be sure

But they never allow you to be sure

My love means more to me than it all

I am attached yes,

I am still in the tunnel 

I just want someone, just one person to love

Just one person to love me

Now I have found her I don’t think I can let her go 

What about the future?

I don’t want freedom

No I don’t want to be away from her

I don’t want to fly around alone

I want to fly around the Earth with her

They have taken control 

Now I have none

They are making me love you

Like they always do

They always made me love the women

Even though it was wrong 

They always threw me into the tunnel

Head first 

Then I am in the tunnel and I blame myself

As if I ever had a chance

Well, the more light that comes

The more I realise I never had a choice

The more I see the more I realise it was all orchestrated

The angels in this Great Play

The Play of life

They curated it 

They are enjoying the Show 

Meanwhile I’m stuck in the tunnel again

This is why they don’t care

When I cry they just watch

They see the tunnel 

They see the light

They see what came before

And they see what is to come after

I am in the carriage of the train

In this bleak carriage 

They can see the entire train

Every single carriage

And the vastness of the land that surrounds it 

They see the light and the dark

The ugliness and the beauty and they think nothing of it

Well, it is the Great Play

What did you expect 

But they do like it when I dance

But when I cry there is not as much sympathy as I’d like

This is why I want a woman 

The Dream?